negativity in focus.

i have begun to realize that i start out a lot of my blogs the same way.
and i have also realized that i start blogs thinking i have some really awesome idea, but then i start to write and realize that it is actually really dumb.
so hopefully, that isnt going to happen this way.
but im not really sure.
anyways. most everyone, it seems, has been kind of negative lately. especially the last month.
and i hate it. a lot.
i think it had something to do with the fact that everyone was together so much, for some people anyways.
that never particularly bothered me. because i loved hanging out with the guys, and bailey, all the time.
but, i think that took a toll on some people.
a lot of the time, i know that i dont get taken as very serious. i know i mess around a lot and i try to make a lot of situations funny. which apparently annoys some people. but i dont like it when people are down, especially if it is for a reason that i cant do anything about.
i can be kind of nosy.
and i am well aware of that.
but it is always for a good reason. i always want to know what is going on that i can try to resolve/salvage the situation. i guess i dont always tell people that, because i guess i usually assume that they don't or won't care.
i feel like a lot of times i have to explain the things i do. i have to let people know the reasons i do things, or otherwise they wont ever understand me.
but i am starting to realize that that isn't at all necessary.
the people who matter are going to love ME for ME. regardless of what I do, or how i do things, or what i say, or how I act. the people that are always going to be there for me arent going to care what kind of person i used to be, the people i used to be friends with, the habits i used to have.
they arent going to care what i wear, or how i do my hair, or the car i drive or the music i listen to.
they are going to like me. all of me. no matter what.
and i thank God every single second of every single day for giving me people like that.