spotlight on god.

I have been told multiple, many, lots of times in my life that I do not seem like a Christian. I don't act like a Christian, I don't talk like a Christian, I don't carry myself as a Christian.

What exactly does this mean? How exactly does a Christian act, talk, dress, carry themselves? Whose right is it to say that I do not fit the "mold" of a Christian?

Yeah, I don't like praying out loud. I don't have a ton of bible verses memorized that I can dispense on a whim. I don't go to church every single Sunday, and I don't always read my Bible every day.

But I know that there is someone out there who is going to love me no matter what I do. who is going to be in my life forever and always, no matter what I do. Who will never judge me for something that I do that may not be the best decision I could have made. Who will always be there for me to turn to whenever it seems like the whole entire world is falling apart.

God is my rock. He has been since I was in eighth grade. When Jonathan Betancourt stopped me after church one Sunday night and asked me a completely simple question. Kayla, if you died on your way home tonight, do you know what would happen to you? I said I figured I would go to heaven. And he said how sure are you? And my answer was I don't know. That question absolutely changed my life forever. On that night I prayed to receive Jesus Christ into my heart, and from that day on I have been in the best relationship I have ever, and will ever, have.

Ever since coming to Wayne, I have wondered a lot about what would have happened if I had gone to a bigger college, maybe not started going to Campus Crusade, maybe fallen into that drinking and partying scene. I thank God every single day that he has surrounded me with such wonderful people who sort of help keep me in line, and keep me sane. I have the best friends that anyone could ask for. I absolutely do not know what life would be like now without them, and I am absolutely dreading being away from them for the summer.

I am completely content with the person that I am and the person that I have become. Think what you want of me, but know. I believe in Jesus Christ, Son of God. I am a Christian, no matter what mold I may or may not fit into.