you've been there. you understand.

relationships.

they are ridiculous, complicated, horrible, wonderful, amazing, dangerous, awesome, scary things.

the worst feeling in the world is wanting something more than anything, and having it cut off.

i feel like that has happened to me a lot lately. both romantically and friendship wise.

i tend to put on a front that i am a really strong, intimidating, tough person.

when in reality, i am the complete opposite. i am a fragile person. i take what people say literally, and often to heart.

i fall far too easily, once im pushed. i say everything i think, which gets me into trouble sometimes.

i cry really easily, something i absolutely despise.

i laugh at everything, sometimes when it isnt even funny.

i am one of the most sarcastic people on the planet. its a horrible habit, and i truly wish for it to stop.

i push people away when i feel like they are going to learn too much. it takes a lot for me to gain trust in someone, and because of that, there is maybe three people on the entire planet that i completely trust.

i am a lot different than people think. and i am a lot different than i was when i started high school, when i graduated high school, and even from when i started college.

i have changed. a lot. and absolutely for the better.

but thats not how i always was. i used to live a lot darker of a life.

my parents may still be together, i may not struggle with alcohol, drugs or come from a broken home. i may not be poor or in poverty or not know when i will have food next.

but i do have a lot of issues that even some brilliant people couldnt figure out.

i am kayla elizabeth clark. and thats all that i know how to be. i am not going to change anything about myself to please everyone around me. ill make the friends that i need and forget the rest. im not here for people to judge and say that i am a bad person, or i do the wrong things.

i am strong. and i can survive anything.